So much missing

People ask me what was wrong and what was missing. I can't tell them, sometimes I can't be too sincere. I can't tell them that he didn't drive me crazy, he didn't make me forget the world, he didn't give me the goosebumps. Although there was so much to feel, I couldn't feel anything. That's what I didn't tell them. Don't get me wrong, he is the dearest guy, used to be the most amazing friend before I messed it up. So great as a friend, so not my type for a boyriend... His jokes, his routine... so different than mine... Unfortunately, we are not in the same place right now. I'm somewhere further, I've grown faster, I left the guys my age behind, and so, for being my age, he was just not where I needed him to be. I couldn't keep on.