always longing for more

I think that the fact that we can only feel fulfilled for so long is just part of our human condition. For example: I have everything. And I mean, everything. I have nothing to complain, thankfully. No big tragedies, no sickness, no sadness surround me. Bad things... I see everyday on tv... not directly involve me. Don't call me alienated, I know there are awful things out there... but I'm speaking about myself. Within a year, I achieved all the goals (let's say many, many goals) I had set for the next couple years. And that's because the year before, I had achieved all the goals I had set during my teen ages. They were not little, they were not easy... but I did reach them and I smile every time I think of it. I have so much, I don't ever wish to be anyone else. I love all that I have and all that I live - and have lived before. I love myself, I love what I am, exactly the way I am. I love my job, my home, family, my friends, college, car... I have everything I could wish for as a 22 years old woman, and more. And besides, and most important, people I love are there, and healthy, and living! I can only be grateful.
But I always want more. And that's why I say we can't be fulfilled for too long. We can savor our accomplishments, but there comes a time when you no longer feel satisfied. You need more! I'm so ambitious, I always need more.
And when you want something, when you long for something, when you have dreams that keep you awake at night... any time is too long. You're as happy as can be, but there's always a reason not to be completely, utterly happy. Happiness comes and goes, it's there in the day, disappears at night (or the other way around).
And I can't procrastinate happiness. I can't not be happy now just to be happy in the future. I have to feel that joy every day, even if only for a minute or two. Recognizing what makes me happy day by day, is what makes life so worth it. I always have reasons to give myself... but there are times, when everything is dark, that we can't see it. That we have to struggle to see it. That we crave for something that is missing. But it's always there... the light will always come in the end.
I'm just so self-confident. Even if I don't feel fulfilled now, I know it's a feeling that will be gone in a blink. If I'm not happy now, give me a smile and I'll smile. If people around me laugh, I laugh. When I miss someone or something, it brings me down. But then it brings me memories of why do I miss it, and so it makes me smile. I'd say the recipe is to be positive and go towards your dreams... draft your goals, and really go after them. It's not gonna come by itself and it takes real guts to stand up and go find out, I know...but it feels so good when you figure out that it wasn't quite impossible, I can tell you. And as I've heard once: When you're in the right path, the universe conspires in your favor.