(un)reasonable

There are so many unreasonable things you do for the people you love. You accept their mistakes and do stuff you're not really supposed to. You hear them saying things that you don't like and shut the hell up, even when you are not really the kind of person to shut up... it's just that you do it for them because you care too much. You struggle and put all your efforts on trying to make them love you back. You often feel disappointed because they don't act the way you expected them to. Because you are afraid their love isn't the unconditional kind - perhaps you know it isn't, so you fear a slip because it would blow it all up, so you keep that fear in your heart and you do everything to avoid it. You are so compelling when you tell them how much you love them, that they start thinking of themselves as perfect...and that you are only lucky to have them in your life. They learn to love you back, but not having to try that hard...they judge you and remind you of your mistakes, don't really remember how hard you worked to fix it though. They can never see and recognize their own mistakes... because you were never capable to let them know. However, there's always a time when you stop to think whether all that effort was worth it. When the mean things other people told you about the way you acted keep hammering in your head. And even if you hate such poisoning words, you can't take it away from your mind. What if they are right? What if you've been acting like a stupid. And what if you were actually stupid, but even though, in the end, you got what you wanted? Perhaps you do love them way more than they love you back, perhaps this is not healthy, this isn't the way it was supposed to be. But you got to be loved, like none of the mean people, the ones who gave you their wretched advises were. You just know that in the end, these 'reasonable' (but not really) ones turned into the most despicable people to you. They were miserable, they didn't have what you did. They were just vain, they got tangible things that didn't last for a long time. They were screaming inside, because their hearts were empty. You, on the flip side, got priceless things that will last a lifetime... no matter what you had to give up for that. You know you would do the same way all over again, only to have what you got. You sure did get what you wanted and it brought you countless moments of joy. Maybe by that... well, you can assume the effort was worth it. And for what's worth...you always get to keep the best memories.